Kevin Gates speaks on wanting to take his own Life Last Year, but a fan encounter ‘Changed His Mind’
Baton Rouge native Kevin Gates recalls moment he planned to kill himself and how a fan encounter changed his mind.
Kevin Gates Details the Moment He Wanted to Take His Own Life in December
During a recent conversation with the Big Facts Podcast, which is hosted by Big Bank and DJ Scream, Gates stated in the interview he wrote a suicide note in December 2020. He was set on ending his life, but a fan thankfully convinced him not to go through with it.
“December 10th through the 12th was the hardest for me this year,” Gates said nine minutes into the interview above. “I disabled my Instagram. … See, I don’t do the ‘Man, I’m ’bout to kill myself!’ I don’t want no attention. I was going the way of the samurai. Just smash myself because I was to the point I ain’t wanna live no more.”
The Baton Rouge rapper explained that before leaving social media for a bit, he put together a party for his daughter's birthday in Cabo, Mexico, holding her and rocking her because he sincerely thought it was the last time. He would ever see her. Gates says his emotional trauma put a tremendous weight on his shoulders and he wasn't feeling "celebrated" at home, but it was a fan interaction at the gym that ended up saving his life.
"I wasn’t happy," he said. "As men, when you a provider and you not feeling like you being celebrated in the proper manner, you feel like you only being tolerated... when I was in the streets I used to hate going home because I felt like I wasn’t welcome there. Y’all act like I’m just doing what I’m supposed to be doing."
Gates told himself, after the interaction with the fan, “give it three days” before making any dramatic decisions. “When I disconnected my Instagram and stopped making comparisons to my life and other people’s highlight film, and just started living for me and really appreciating the good things about myself, and love what you have and have all that you need and really engaging with myself and the world—that’s what really shook me all the way," he said. “If I only help one person with my story, with everything I’ve been through, then I’ve served my purpose.”
Watch the whole interview with Kevin Gates below.